Thursday, April 28, 2011


As the winter SSSLLLLOOOOWWWWLLLLYYYY slips into spring, I am here to catch all of you up on whats been going on in my life.

Life is good, I guess. If you only knew all the pain and crap I've been dealing with, but when I look back onto all my life, the things I'm dealing with right now are small compared to what I could be dealing with, or what I have dealt with in the past. My friends at Moody are finishing their spring semester at college these next couple of weeks and I can't feel sad and jealous of them. I keep on trying to keep a good head with all of these things- it doesnt matter how long it takes me to go through college, as long as I don't give up. But on the other hand, as I see my friends, who I started out with, exceeding me in everything, I can't hep feeling distressed. Distressed at myself and at God for allowing this to happen to me again and again. Why can't I do this school thing? I've never been allowed to finish anything- why? But I praise the Lord no matter what happens in my life... no matter no matter.

This summer I am staying in Chicago in a little basement apartment in East Garfield Park, working at the private Christian elementary school I've been working part-time at this semester. I will be a Summer Camp Counseller for their summer day camp program, with my little first and second graders! I am looking forward to this job, and looking forward to learning more and more about how to work with kids, building a foundation in order to prehaps become a teacher myself one day! I rejoice for the opportunity, it's going to be really nice to live in the city and work in the city... Pray that my attitude remains that way througout! :)

My bitterness towards my morning job has been appeased only by the reminder that I will only be working it for another month. Dog walking these last couple of months has given me the realization that 1)I don't need a dog for awhile... and 2)I'm DEFINITELY a people person :)

Some things I want to praise the Lord for: MY JOBS... although I have been having a negative attitude towards one of them, I AM truly grateful for them- thank you Lord!
My old high school friend from Clarenceville Highschool, a friend whom I've been praying for for over four years just informed me that he's been going to church and pursuing God! I remember pleading for his life, interceding on his behalf, asking that God would save him. And although I am unsure if he's saved or just seeking, I PRAISE HIM for answered prayer- even if it took four years!

My friends: Lord I praise you for the community and support you have given me here in Chicago! I can't even start to describe how much I love these people.

Thank you all for praying for me these last few hard months. I know the fight has not ended, it is just beginning! Praise him! FOR THE KINGDOM!!!


Friday, March 11, 2011

DogWalking and ChildCaring

HOLA people. I'm SO SORRY it took me so long to get back on here, but I've been struggling with some lack-of-inspiration these last couple of months.

UPDATE: Well, I've gotten my hands on some employment- God's been really taking care of me the last three months, while I didn't have a job. FINALLY I can say that I'm bringing in some income by my own means (with God's strength, of course)!!!

I walk dogs in the mornings, and work with kids at a school during AfterCare. Salem Christian School was where I volunteered last semester for my PCM (Practical Christian Ministry, kind of like Field Education or an Internship that is required by Moody every semester for all of their students), and I asked if I could continue volunteering there this semester, even though I no longer attend Moody (at the moment). After a couple of weeks of going there and hanging out with the kids once a week, they offered me a part-time position there (working four days a week and continuing to volunteer there once a week), and possibly a summer position! WOW thank you LORD!

As for walking dogs, it's a pretty good job in the mornings, taking the Brown Line ALLLL the way up north to the Fransisco stop and walking around the beautiful neighbourhoods near Montrose and California... I enjoy the alone-thinking-praying time... but I feel like I haven't been taking advantage of it like I should be. :P

SO Life has been okay. It's hard to figure out whats going on in my own life, God's been really leaving it as a mystery. As for long-term goals, I don't really have any, besides the obvious- return to school (when? Idk), get married (in the FAR future... Lord Willing) and move to New York (still a goal? As of now, the Lord hasn't changed my heart for NYC yet).

CB has been awesome! God has been doing amazing things in the people on Saturdays and every other day, and as Spring Break comes around the bend, Im praying that we remember our friends on the streets in our prayers. :)

Ill come soon, I PROMISE and leave a more substantial post. :) Off to work!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

For Those.

Lord Im praying for the people I know who always seem to be getting the short end of the stick...
who look back on their life and can't find anything to smile about
But yet smile anyway.

Lord, I'm praying for the people who step out of their doors and wonder how long they're going to be able to do that. Who take a breath and who take a bite and wonder if this will be their last. But yet do it again, because it's the only thing they can do.

Lord, Im praying, Im pleading, for those who walk through the streets of this sun-forsaken land and worship the rain that never comes, the light that is never found, and the love they do not own. But Lord, they still expect rain, light and love, because love, light and rain is all the hope they know.

LORD, I PRAY for those who love the idea of you, but don't know who you are. Who love the idea of love, but don't feel it. Who love the idea of family, but don't know enough about it to know if they have it. But still try so hard to know, feel and recognize.

LORD, I pray for those people, whereever, and who ever they are who cry out to someone up there, not knowing who, just for a little answer. LORD... I pray for those.

For I was once one.